Controlled By or Set Free From Fear

Yesterday a certified letter arrived in the mail. With it was brought fear. It was vague yet contained enough..."This letter is to advise you that because of pending investigation of licensing complaints...it has been determined...until licensing and safety issues are resolved..." No details or explanation were given. This was in regards to our home as a fosterhome. All kinds of things began to swirl around in my head. This happened once before and it was many tense weeks of us proving that the accusations that had been filed against us were completely false. I was not prepared to face that battle again. This letter came on the heels of other attacks from the evil one and I have felt particularly vulnerable. I felt spiritually and emotionally weak. I wanted to escape somewhere far away.

This morning God mercifully encouraged me through His eternal Word:


Psalm 55:16-19,22,23
I will call to God, and the LORD who saves me.
Evening and morning I cry out in my distress and He hears my voice.
He ransoms me unharmed from the battle waged against me, even though many oppose me.
God, who is enthroned forever will hear them and afflict them - men who never change their ways and have no fear of God.
Cast your cares on the LORD and He will sustain you;
He will never let the righteous fall
As for me, I trust in You


Psalm 56: 3,4,9-11
When I am afraid, I will trust in You
In God whose word I praise
In God I trust, I will not be afraid.
What can mortal man do to me?
My enemies will turn back when I call for help,
By this I know that God is for me.
In God whose word I praise, In God whose word I praise-
In God I trust, I will not be afraid.
What can man do to me?


Nothing can separate me from the love of God.


The rest of the story...
I left a message on the investigator's phone last night asking for a phone call first thing this morning. She called by 8:30am (a long time since I'd been up at 5:15am...too much brain time!!). The problem was a paperwork problem. They were lacking a background clearance form in their files and had been trying to contact our licensor for 4 months with no response. Their "only" option was to put a hold on any more fostercare activity in our home which came in the same letter form as for any other problem worth investigating. I wonder why it isn't in the processes to call the home? Hummmm! Anyway, the problem was quickly resolved.


And, now, to this I still hold on:
In God alone is my strength. He is my rock.